Oh my god I had a nightmare about my ex last night. One of those you wake up from almost crying.
In the dream we hadn't broken up yet and he was kissing me and wanting more. I didn't really want to have sex with him and when he pulled out his penis it was all brown from having had analsex. I fled and looked me in the bathroom. I was crying in the dream. When I woke up I still had that feeling of disgust and still had the urge to cry. I really hate those dreams.